24 September 2008 1117
I miss our old days. It has been almost two months. In fact, it was a really short while...
No matter what you are doing right now, I wish you get to read this and feel happy when you read this, because I wish to let you know that I feel differently now... I agree to a lot of your points; the thing we seem bad now, might not be bad afterall; and about the self seeking, Im daunting now, it could be really frightening which i had no fear in the past... ; and about the...
I wonder when would you come to see the difference. Or you never will...
I wonder if i should tell you my date of arrival. I wonder if I should just come and go in my trip without telling you about it. I wonder if I should only tell you on the spot and be flexible for you could come or not. I wonder if you will attend the date. I wonder which date is the best date. I wonder if you like what I have planned. I wonder if you want it such a way. I wonder if I should make you attend the date cos Im hurting P by doing so. I had a lot of planning for this date earlier on, but today, I only wish to meet you for a meal, thats all about it. By doing so, I guess I can face P without any guilts, although I will not meet her at all.
And, I wonder, if you are still around for me. And then I too wonder, if you are still around, am i capable to want what you can offer afterall? I wonder.
I know you will reply by giving me a full surprise, including not reply at all, which will not be an answer that I wanted to have, as we always think differently...
As last, i wonder if this is going to be another blog post that I write for a record and in later days i wish i hadnt written.